My Eternal Flame.. Eternal Soulmate

Dear Lucifer ...

6 is my number ..

this is the sixth month since the day we met again in this world..

i had experienced many wonderful , colourful and beautiful moments 
with you which i choose to keep it forever....
those moments..
will stay in my memories ever.. 

i have never regretted 

meeting and knowing and loving you this much...

never..

i have never been loved as much as you have loved me...

and hopefully still loving me....

as i am still in love and loving you until now ... 

and forever...

i know what is inside my heart...

i can lie to many people including you...

but i can never lie to myself...

i can paint beautiful cinderella story for others to believe...

but i can never paint it to myself to believe ...

many things that need to sacrifice... 

i am willing to take that sacrifices... 

i was afraid before but not anymore... 

i am ready now ... 

whenever you are ready

please come and take me ..

i know... 

i have prayed to god to take me away from your heart...

to erase all our moments from your memories...

because i dont want you keep on hoping and expecting from me...

as hoping and expecting 

makes you sad and frustrated 

if it fails ...

your happiness is my happiness....

and i cant live knowing you are not happy...

perhaps...

for you not having that memories of me .. 

will lessen your sorrow and sadness...

but for myself... 

i choose to still have the memories of you fresh in my mind...

my body...my soul...in my dreams.... 

and my best personal moment is 

whenever i close my eyes i see you .. 

whenever i hear the sounds of the guitar 

when someone pluck its strings.. 

i shed to tears ...

whenever i see white sandy beaches ..

the clear sea water and the clear blue skies...

i see u dancing by the beach..

i see you flying ...

soaring high like an eagle ... 

i see you everywhere...

i can still smell you as if you are besides me...

kissing me tenderly..

hugging me tightly..

i can still see your sweet and charming smiles .... 

your loving eyes...

i am always here ... 

waiting for you ... 

i hv no intention of leaving you ... 

i wont ... 

i hv found you ... 

only the soul knows her mate ... 

i hv found u ... 

my soulmate...

my eternal flame...

Loving you...