used to have my own blog back in 2009 ... then i stopped writing...and suddenly now i have the calling to write again.... many events has occurred throughout my life since 2009....but not goon write those past beautiful and lovely experience... later ..:)

tonite just feel like to write and write.. let it flow from the heart.... i know.. writing has always been a very good therapy to me...i used to have my diaries and journals since i was a little princess...but my dull and routine life has prevented me from writing...but now... i really meant now...i am jobless and unemployed and it is like everyday is a vacation for me...where i wake up every morning...and ask Boss i.e. God to lead me the way... i just follow His lead..

okay... now whats next?.. hurmm.. i actually wanted to write how i feel today and voice out all the uneasiness..frustration and anger via this blog...but somehow...the moment i start writing.. i start smiling.. and WOW!!!! where does all the anger...frustration and uneasiness go???

yeah.... it is the mood of writing....it does help me to be calm and cool and BLUR!! :)

since i was a little girl..whenever i look at myself... i see the dark ugly skinny girl who is always being left out... outcast...

the only friend she have was herself...whereby she imagined her self as one of those beautiful disney princesses...and somehow she believes so much in true love...maybe she had never felt the true love before...she always live in her own world..her own fairytales....her own fantasy...

when she grew up...she finally met her match...the one she thought her one true love...whom she calls the Dare Devil

how she adores him...loves him...deeply loving him...

hurmmm.....so many things inside my big heart...which i couldn't express it now...slowly my friend...slowly....

as usual...writing is always my therapy....i have started to write...and will continue writing...as i am now no longer hiding...

sincerely Angelic Black Widow

as i believe every good and evil both bring the GOOD at the end...

loving my both angelic me and the darkness me...god has created me that way..and i am blessed and happy with what i have....

till then...